The one to do it.

I wish you would just leave me alone.

It would make things so much easier.

There would be no more anger or frustration

over replies and shoulda saids,

and I could deal with not knowing because

it would mean a clearer head.

I wish you would just walk away.

So I don’t have to be the one to do it.

There would be no more questions about feelings

or fears of saying too much,

and I could finally move on and really be free

from stupid crushes and such.

I wish you would just leave me alone.

It would make things so much easier.

I wish you would just walk away.

So I don’t have to be the one to do it.

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