I Don't Understand

February 24, 2007 - Saturday

Current mood: confused
Category: Life

"I don't understand."

Sometimes I think this could be my life's anthem. I should have t-shirts made up: a different color for each day of the week. I could put the saying on baseball caps and wear them on pony-tail days. I could make up bumper stickers and put them on my truck. I could make banners and put them on my walls at home and work. I could even make it my mantra but I think mantras are supposed to be positive.

I suppose you could spin it and say, "Acknowledging that you don't understand IS a positive thing because you're being honest." The problem is that despite my honesty, I don't feel positive about many of the things I don't understand. I mean I'm fine with not understanding "God" stuff, after all He's perfect and trustworthy. It's easy to not understand with Him because regardless of my understanding He does understand and He's going to take care of things. The stuff I struggle with is human stuff. God understands that stuff too, but humans aren't perfect and yet they have free will. You can't trust all humans...shoot you can't trust any humans. The Bible point blank says not to put our hope in man.

Hmmmm. This is a little deeper than I thought it was going to be. I'll have to come back to it.

Steph

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