Pierced

March 10, 2007 - Saturday

Current mood: sad
Category: Life

my doctor's ears when I came into this world
the silence when my mother wept for me
my heart when she gave me away
my spirit when I learned my fate
sadness when I touched the keys
walls when I learned to write
insecurity when I realized I had a voice
assurance when I realized I wasn't enough
earlobes when I turned 12...it was my birthday
earlobes again when I turned 16...it was rebellion
eyes when I saw him clearly for the first time
soul when I realized I was in love but he wasn't
innocence when I tried to forget
the darkness when I chose HIM for the first time
solitude when I found my place
confusion when I understood my past
boredom when I discovered who and what I wanted to be
loneliness when I met the one
happiness when he died
discontent when I got to acceptance

His side
for my transgressions
which make my piercings
more than pale
in comparison.




Currently listening:
Oh! Gravity.
By Switchfoot
Release date: 26 December, 2006

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