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January 26, 2008 - Saturday

...ation Current mood: bullied Category: Life Frustration leads to a desire for separation from a location causing consternation. There is no communication only the insinuation of an expectation requiring the prostration of my station. The often unbearable relation, not responsible for my initial creation but active in participation with regard to my maturation is the seemingly never-ending causation of degradation to my elation resulting in aggravation. What is the motivation for the constant justification of adjudication? Could it be the inaccurate speculation of some kind of contrived elevation? It is beyond my imagination! How long can I withstand the incessant manipulation, the malignant provocation, the public simulation of appreciation and admiration, the private presentation of humiliation and condemnation? How long can I maintain self-deprecation, soul mutilation, joy deflation, spirit denunciation? Will I last until my transportation to the next destination – the finalization of my education, the recuperation of my financial situation? With lamentation I take my litigation to the One who brings a ministry of reconciliation. Through His love He allows contemplation, giving way to illumination: a clarification of my so-called tribulation. I feel Holy relaxation: proof of His dedication. This is a preparation for the purpose of Christ-like modification, and so my declaration will be an invitation for the new creation that will exist when my transformation is complete.