Biting the Art Gallery Bullet
 | Current mood:  anxious This is the letter I've just submitted to my boss. She will get it tomorrow. Tell me what you think.
I was going to talk to you about this tonight but I'm so drained right now that I'm overly emotional and I can guarantee you there would have been more than a few tears because I'm tearing up now as I type and you're not even around.
I am not quitting at this point; I'll say that right away. I cannot, however, continue to be the main person that you count on for working when you're not here. I just can't handle the responsibility of it. Even though you are always as accommodating as you can be, I feel like I have to be available even if I can't be or don't want to be. Along with that, I cannot continue to work as many hours. I thought I might be able to hang on until after the first of the year, but I can't. Simply knowing that the hours will be extended in the mall and acknowledging the fact that I am already not spending enough time at school and at my brother's office has sent me into a tail spin. I'm worrying about December and it's not even November yet. Another huge issue is that I'm not going to church right now. This is my responsibility, so I'm not blaming you. I thought I could work Sundays so you could go to church because we have an early service, but none of my friends, the main reason I started going to Morningstar, attend the early service because they're involved in ministry. Singles' Sunday school is at 6 pm on Sunday nights, so I tried doing that, but I haven't arrived once before 6:45. It's half way over by then. I don't mind too much not having a social life, but I don't even get to see my friends at church. I won't take more time away from school, my career, because I'm already not doing all that I should. I won't take more time away from my family because I'm not working with them as much as I should and I'm not "playing" with them at all. I can't take time away from my social life, because I don't have a social life. I also can't take time away from sleep because it affects my health and my performance. I'm frustrated because financially I need the work, but I just can't handle the hours or the responsibility any more. At this point I am not doing anything at 100%, so I need to drastically cut back in the one area where I can cut back and that is at the gallery. My preference would be to work at most, 2 nights during the week and a Saturday shift. During Christmas, if you need me, I will be available all hours but I realize that you may not be able (or wanting) to accommodate me, and that's fine. I could use the vacation. If this doesn't fit into your plans then my next step is to offer my two-week notice, effective today, Friday, October 27, 2006. This is not so much my choice, but simply necessary for my well-being.
Okay gang, let me have it. I love you all, Steph |
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