I Need a Vacation From My Life

December 12, 2006 - Tuesday

Current mood: anxious

I don't want to die. It's nothing like that. I still have the joy of knowing Christ...I'm fully aware of the fact that He is the only reason I'm still maintaining right now. I just really want to be somewhere else right now. I'd kind of like to be SOMEONE else right now. Is this depression or is it just a seasonal thing. I'm so ready to be done with school right now...wish I could be done completely with the gallery...I need a break. A real break. A real break. A real break. Maybe that's what I'm suffering from...a break. Someone I know just recently had an emotional break. I'm unhappy. Maybe it's just me, just today, just a reaction to all the drama and crap that's going on and falling down around me. I need a cry. I need a yell. I need some money so I can go get some chocolate and drown my sorrows. I need the time to cry and yell and drown my sorrows in chocolate. I have nothing I want right now and the one thing that I need. Jesus. Why am I not okay with that? Why am I not content with that? Why am I not talking to You about this? I need You right now, Lord. I am so ready to just quit...quit it all. Not so much life...I'm not suicidal. I just want to leave...here...me...this...everything.
Currently listening:
The Best of Fuel
By Fuel
Release date: 13 December, 2005

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