Later That Same Day...

August 3, 2007 - Friday

Current mood: good
Category: Friends

I ended up with no plans tonight... that sucks. I haven't seen Transformers and tonight I really wanted to go see it but I didn't have anyone to go with... I have some chick friends who are like me, and dig the so-called "guy" movies, but they're out of town. I don't know any guys well enough to ask them without them thinking I'm trying to pick them up, so that was out, too. I had made up my mind to go alone, 'cause I'm an independent gal and can do that, but tonight I really needed company... old friend/special bond company. I needed one of my "sistahs." Sigh.

With the piss poor mood I was in it was probably best that I was home alone tonight. It gave me time to practice my songs for Sunday worship team and I do love a quiet, cool evening with a breeze blowing through my windows... Just when I thought I would have a completely "dead" evening I got a text message... 858 area code. It was a friend of mine from California that I met on one of those now laid to rest dating websites. Yay. I was rescued... sort of. LOL.

I hadn't heard from him since the last of March... when we met online we totally hit it off personality wise but there were too many lifestyle/faith issues to be anything more than friends. But we were really good friends considering we'd only ever talked online and on the phone. In March, however, he met someone right up his alley, not to mention the same state, and they started dating.

I'm one of those rare people who realizes that when a friend first starts dating someone and it looks like a good match, I'd better be ready to take a back seat. I'm totally okay with it unless I get a bad vibe about the person or something like that. As a matter of fact I make it a practice to say, "Listen, I know you're doing the whole 'getting to know each other thing' so call me if you need me but don't sweat it if you don't call me for a while." I also do that when my friends have babies. I'll check in on them every once in a while, but most times I just put myself on standby and wait until I'm needed. That's what I did with my friend from California. I missed our phone buddy relationship and having someone to say goodnight to, but I also realized he needed space to cultivate this new relationship. At some point, if he needed me, or if they broke up, I was pretty sure I'd get a call. It ended up being a text first and then a call.

I don't have confirmation on the break-up yet. Apparently there will be a discussion this weekend, but he did say things had changed in the last two weeks. Of course he did the, "I'm a horrible friend" thing, but he's not a horrible friend, he's just single and dating... I get it. Well, I don't really get it because I only fit the single part, not the dating part. LOL. But, I do understand. I'm just glad I was here, pathetically lonely, enjoying the breeze... I'M KIDDING! This goes back to that whole thing of leaving things open and in a nice way, as opposed to burning bridges and being pissy and angry.

It was good talking to him. I'm sure I'll get a call after the talk. I talked him through it a little bit tonight. He won't be devastated if they break up - he's logical like me - if they break up then it's not meant to be. Plus, I'll have my goodnight phone buddy back. Yay! If they don't break up then hopefully he knows now that I'm still here for him if he needs me.

Goodnight,
Steph

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