Life Isn't Fair
 | Current mood:  frustrated Category: Life Sometimes it's really hard to deal with the unfairness of life. I find that I can usually deal remarkably well with unfair things that happen to me, but I really struggle with things not being fair for others. I currently know of a situation where a person is getting away with so much crap and playing the role of the victim, and this person's peers are standing around wondering why they receive all sorts of retribution and consequence for their choices but this other person doesn't. We'll call this person Candace for the purpose of literary flow. Candace *has* had a pretty hard life. She is the victim of many things and many people and in reality she hasn't received a very good upbringing. She's got some physiological and psychosocial disorders that cause her to act out in mal-appropriate ways but there is also some amount of simple disregard for social structure and norms. Some of her peers have also had trauma in their lives, and some of them also suffer from various disorders. But they don't act out. They don't cause the problems that Candace causes and yet they are held responsible for their actions while Candace seemingly is not. I'm struggling with this. I'll be the first to tell you that life isn't fair and yet I am so angry about this situation because Candace isn't getting what she deserves. She's getting treated differently because she has "issues." Well what the hell? We all have issues! Y'know the only "person" who is fair is God. Oh how I wish this world worked like He does. Blanket rules, no exceptions unless He grants mercy or grace. Being that He is all knowing, He is the only One who knows who should have mercy and grace. We have the right to ask Him questions but respect is required. We have the right to talk it out with Him but acceptance of His answer is demanded. We bow humbly and thankfully at his feet, knowing that He is just and loving and fair and all that is good. I want Candace to do this. I want Candace to somehow realize the error of her ways and snap the hell out of it. It's not fair to the people around her. Spare the rod... (Sorry for cussing.) I am so frustrated about this! I pray I get understanding because I don't like being this angry...and yet if I'm going to be angry about something I think injustice is a good reason, right? I am aware of how intolerant I'm being. I'm not to the point of being sorry yet, I'm sure I will be soon, but I am so angry sometimes at the victims of the world who remain in the victim role. Sometimes I wish there wasn't special treatment for people with issues but who have decent intellect and abilities. Sometimes I think our "system" isn't a system at all but some ridiculous circus that was set up. Our "system" can be stupid as crap sometimes! There are a lot of idiots running our "system" and even more "constant victims" benefiting from that stupid system. Psychology and tolerance have taken over to the point that no one who has any kind of "issue" truly receives disciplinary action any more. Sometimes I really do think that some people just need a good spanking over the knee. There is something to be said for good old fashioned corporal punishment. I'm not talking about beating someone to a pulp, I'm just talking about a good butt busting. A consequence that hurts bad enough to make you think twice next time but not enough to need band aids or ice packs. I tell you what, I got spanked when I was a kid and I am so freaking thankful that I did. I know how to act around people, I know what's socially acceptable and what's rude, and I know how to show people respect and courtesy even when it's not returned. I can't say that I'm ready. I've got so much to take care of and "fix" before He comes back. Still, there are days when I wish with my heart and soul that He would rid us all of this place and take us home... Tomorrow I will feel more calm. I'll have more clarity and not be wrapped up in the moment like I am right now. I'll be more logical, less emotional, and I'll be thinking more in line with how wonderful it is that God tries very hard to NOT give us what we ALL deserve. For now, though, I'm upset and disenchanted and really pretty confused about it all. That's all I have to say. |
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