ETA: Wednesday... but I’m doing okay now.

July 22, 2008 - Tuesday

Current mood: okay
Category: Life

So as the day has progressed, and I've cleaned and straightened and tried to "get ready" for the impending return of my parents, I've calmed down. I don't know if anyone was praying for me... I hope they were... but the Holy Spirit has been comforting me and I realize that it will all get done, and even if it doesn't, I'm not 12 anymore. I'm not a little girl who lives and breathes for the attention of her mother. I can't afford to live in fear and trembling because I may not do something the way someone wants me to. I can't play into someone else's issues.

Man, I've got SO much growing up to do. I mean, I have these epiphanies - these breakthroughs - and just like learning anything about God, it just makes me realize how much farther I have to go. I'm humbled and little stupified by how much more I need to learn and know.

So, I'm just going to deal. I'm not going to anticipate anything. I'm going to finish cleaning up - there's not that much to do, really - and then I'm going to do... whatever. (I won't sleep much because I'm on the night shift sleeping schedule.)

Just thought I'd put this out there.

God is GOOD!

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