Parental Disclaimer
 | Current mood:  intense Category: Life Make no mistake... I love my parents. I have loved them from the moment I met them, literally. But we couldn’t have been more different from each other if I’d been born another species. That is where a lot of the strife comes from. From their own mouths they have expressed that they don’t understand me. But it’s okay because I, for the most part, understand them. They took me in when I was 5 and did what no other adult had been able to do up until that point: they gave me a stable home environment, my own bedroom, my own clothes, my own identity - even if it was different from them, and they provided for me regardless of whether my behavior fit into their idea of "normal" or not. They didn’t know what they were getting themselves into... neither did I. But God put us together and I believe that THIS is my family. But I’m not going to sugar coat things. It’s difficult. It’s difficult A LOT. Sometimes it’s like we’re speaking different languages and sometimes I don’t even get to speak. My blogs give me a voice. I’m not trying to be disrespectful and I’m not trying to make them seem like idiots or less than what they are. They are WONDERFUL in so many ways. But they are human and they have done some very human things. I’m just trying to bring a little humor to the situation so I can deal with it a little better. I have never been a perfect child. I make no bones about that. They have struggled with me as much as I have struggled with them, possibly more. My mom even bought the James Dobson book, "The Strongwilled Child" because apparently I’m strong-willed. But y’see they have each other to talk to and balance each other out. Then, as he got older, they had my brother Tim to talk to as well. I’ve got Jesus, and we discuss this all the time, and I believe this is one of the avenues He has given me to process through this stuff. Other than that it’s just me and my counselor and we only meet once every two weeks. LOL. I don’t want people to take my side, necessarily, although I am VERY aware that there are people who take my parents’ side. (You’d be amazed at what you find out about yourself by being in the next room when someone is having a conversation about you.) I just want my side to be heard. I just want to be able to say something, to someone, maybe even just to a computer screen, so it’s out there. Cause if it’s "out there" then it’s not so much "in here" and it doesn’t hurt as much. My intent isn’t to slam or offend anyone, and my blogs are certainly not supposed to make people think less of me - that I’m a brat or intolerant or disrespectful of my mom and dad. I’ve never been that great at being "good" but I can manage "honest" pretty well. I’m just being honest, and trying to see the humor in my life... think Blog Comedian or something. Hopefully that’s evident to most of the people who read this stuff. God is GOOD! |
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