The Dixon Discourse

December 29, 2007 - Saturday Move it! I’m gonna lose it! Current mood: busy Category: Life So I'm taking a little break from moving right now. I've got the cable turned to the contemporary Christian music station and I'm grinning a little because some of it's not so contemporary. Hmmm. I think I listened to this song when I was in high school, I'll go check it out... Keith Green - "He'll Take Care of the Rest" from the late 70s!?!? Wow, I was in elementary! It's commercial free, though, and I like that. I guess some of those songs DO take me back to simpler times. LOL. There are days when I'd go back in a heartbeat if I had the chance. Of course I'd like to take my knowledge with me, but th...

December 28, 2007 - Friday James Current mood: contemplative Category: Friends Today is the anniversary of the death of my friend James. He died one year ago today. It's still hard to deal with because he was so young and I didn't get the chance to know him for very long... Even so, the connection that we had was deep and I still miss him today as if I'd just talked to him yesterday. I'm a better person for having known him and in some ways I'm a little more messed up for having known him, too. But the good outweighs the bad by SO much. One of the coolest things to come out of knowing James is having three new friends that I can talk to, check on, and with whom I can reminisce. L, D and M you ladies have made this a...

December 22, 2007 - Saturday Family Current mood: vexed Category: Life Yay! I got my Christmas present early! Tonight I had dinner at my parents' house and guess who I got to see? The blondes! This is what I call my oldest brothers' family - because they all have blonde hair. I haven't seen them in such a long time and it is so cool that they are here. N looks great - she's my sister-in-law and I love her like no other. She's mellow and funny, and just plain wonderful. S is the oldest son and man has he grown up and become so stinking cool! He's in his senior year at college and I'm just so impressed with him! K, the middle child and only daughter, is beautiful and funny and very smart. We share the same mid...

December 11, 2007 - Tuesday Under Construction Current mood: amused Category: Life So I stopped by my parents' house on the way home from my brother's house and my dad was out in the garage. He's clearing it out in order to start building my room. Yeah. I said it, "my room." I'm moving in with my parents. Well, I'm not moving in WITH them, I won't actually be living in the house, but I'll be living under their roof. The room in the garage is supposed to be finished by the last week in December so I can be moved in by the first of January. My dad is going to frame it out and put down a wood floor and carpet on top of the cement for me. I'll have my own bathroom and easy access to the washer and ...

December 6, 2007 - Thursday Family, Friends & Myspace Current mood: tired Category: Life It's easy to lose to touch with people. We get busy, become focused on "our stuff," and without realizing or intending it, we suddenly haven't spoken with this person or another in years. But the cool thing about some people, whether family or friends, is that they want to reconnect just as much as you do. It doesn't matter WHY you lost touch, it just matters that you're open to getting BACK in touch. In the past few months I've reconnected with family and friends that I haven't seen in SO long. Today my cousin found me and I haven't seen her in well over two decades! The bonus? She lives with another cousi...

December 3, 2007 - Monday Body Language Current mood: sleepy Category: Life Our bodies have a way of talking to us when they're not doing well. I can imagine that each body has it's own language, but I think mine speaks about 5. It's probably because I'm a poor translator or something. LOL. It starts with my stomach getting upset. I take something for that and it usually goes away. Next my face breaks out... hello? How old am I? Not really much I can do but go hardcore on the clearasil. After the skin comes the headaches. I take something for the headaches and then my shoulders (where I hold most of my tension) start to hurt. So I take something for that. Then I either start sleeping too much or can't sleep at all. ...

November 30, 2007 - Friday Love Current mood: contemplative Category: Life As the Holy Spirit gently speaks to me about who I am and how I live, I find myself thinking about how I deal with people. I think about how I treat people, what I say to them, what I tell others about them, what I allow myself to think about them. As I read God's word, I find a LOT of verses and passages that talk about these issues. Growing up the way I did it would be very easy for me to translate most of what I read as, "This is what you're doing wrong – you're really screwing things up." But again, as I allow the Holy Spirit to guide my thoughts and process of discovery I realize that what I'm really reading is, "This is the w...

November 29, 2007 - Thursday Truth Current mood: thankful Category: Life You can be perfectly honest with a person and still not tell them the truth. Today someone did both for me: spoke honestly AND spoke the Truth. She had no hidden agendas and no questionable motives... she was there because I asked her to be there and she listened to my secrets and shame without judgement. She spoke the Truth in love and I had no choice but to look in its mirror and see me for who and what I am. I am a child of God: precious in His sight. I am set apart for His glory and His love. He created me and has a very specific plan for my life that, if He so deems it, can withstand any detour I might take. My potential is tremendous. My talents and gifts are ...

November 14, 2007 - Wednesday I’m all messed up. Current mood: weird Category: Life I should so be in bed right now but my sleep patterns are all wiggy - have been for quite some time - and my belly is a little peeved at me. (Too many salads in one day?) I've also been in SEVERE think mode, which, yes, means I'll have some hardcore blogging to do at some point. On top of all of that my lungs hurt (pleurisy) and I'm just feeling messed up in general. Other than that, I'm okay. It's been a while since I blogged so I thought I'd give a short update. That's all.

October 26, 2007 - Friday New Job: First Week Is Over Current mood: tired Category: Jobs, Work, Careers I'm tired, my feet hurt, I have a head ache... and I'm grinning from ear to ear because for the first time in a long time my aches and pains are coming from things I've done and not things people have done TO me. Sure, I hear the basic moaning and groaning about gripe-worthy stuff, but there is NO DRAMA! Life and the new job are great. Yay!

October 22, 2007 - Monday First day of the new job... Current mood: happy Category: Jobs, Work, Careers and it was awesome! I'm so thankful.

October 17, 2007 - Wednesday I Hate It... Current mood: confused Category: Life I hate feeling two polar opposite emotions at one time. I hate having an "up" and a "down" going on simultaneously. The "up" lessens the severity of the sadness and the "down" lessens the rapture of the happiness. Neither emotion ends up feeling "true" because they're not full force. What's worse is I can't do anything to fix or change or stop things. It's confusing. I feel disoriented. Currently listening: Greatest Hu...

October 17, 2007 - Wednesday I’m closing in... Current mood: restless Category: Jobs, Work, Careers Sigh. I can't believe I only have two days left. Wow. I'm still writing my new job blog (using MS word so I can edit, lol) I've got SO much to say and tell. I'm READY TO GO! READY! TO! GO!

October 12, 2007 - Friday Today is my birthday. Current mood: amused Category: Life Today is my very own birthday! Another year come and gone. It makes me crack jokes about my age using cheese, wine and so on. My birthday reminds me of good and bad, of failures, successes and draws. But mainly it makes me look at my life; look back, look forward and pause. Today as I start a new year of my life I find myself taking a leap. New job in a week, back to school for my masters, So excited I can hardly sleep! And while there will always be change in my life, my family holds fast, this I know. Cause' once again I was just called to attend my birthday dinner, invited five minutes ago. My family CRACKS ME UP! Happy Birthday to me, I love yo...

October 9, 2007 - Tuesday Two Steps Forward... Current mood: tired Category: Life I had a day today. You know, "one of those." It started way before I was ready for it to start. It ended way past when I wanted it to end. The inbetween time was much more complicated than I thought it would be. I'm on the downslope. I'm starting a great new job in less than two weeks. Things should be cheese. Things are not cheese. Just when I think I'm moving forward I have to move back first. It's like sewing. I took home ec, I know the drill. If you mess up a stitch, or if the machine messes up the stitch, you pull out the thread and re-do it. You sew it again. Life is hard to sew again. It's hard to pull out the thre...

October 8, 2007 - Monday The Secret Revealed. Current mood: ecstatic Category: Jobs, Work, Careers I GOT A NEW JOB! I won't say where it is but it's a GOOOOOOOOOD one. I got TWO offers this morning but took the one that I thought was best for me. YAY! I will have a lengthy blog (later) to inform you as to why it's such a big deal and why I'm so happy and why I had to be secretive. I just wanted to put it out there for those of you who were wondering. I GOT A NEW JOB!!!! YAY! Steph

September 28, 2007 - Friday Shhhhhh. It’s a secret. Current mood: anxious Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes Have you ever had a secret you desperately wanted to tell everyone? It almost burns on the tongue it's so spicy! It's like being under water and holding your breath until your lungs are about to burst and then finally when you can't take it any more you come up for air. It's exciting but it's also aggravating as HECK! I've got this secret that I literally want to shout from the rooftops. My lungs aren't quite at bursting point, but they are close. I know I'll be able to tell it soon, I think, but I can't right now because not everyone has my best interest at heart. If I let the secret out of the b...

September 4, 2007 - Tuesday Spell check Current mood: tired Category: Blogging I'm a dork. I re-read my blogs and when I find spelling errors in them I go back in and fix them. LOL.

September 3, 2007 - Monday Blog Therapy Telegraph Current mood: angry Category: Life Slight headache gone. Stop. Replaced by huge frustration. Stop. Send help soon. Stop.

September 3, 2007 - Monday Peeves - Temporary and Permanent Current mood: full Category: Life I try to be easy going... emphasis on the word "try." I also "try" to be understanding, non-judgemental, tolerant (the Biblical version, not the politcally correct version), and long suffering. Sometimes, however, it just doesn't work. I don't know if it's my flesh taking over or just my common sense and rationale being stretched to their limits, but every now and then I get tired of stuff and I just have to let it out. This is one of those times. The thing about my peeves is that some of them are temporary and some are permanent. I haven't decided which of these are either or yet. I'll probably decide w...

September 3, 2007 - Monday Cold Turkey for a While Current mood: awake Category: Life I tossed and turned in bed last night: got NO rest. I hate that. I woke up this morning with a slight headache and an idea that I need to give something specific up for a while... but I'm not going to say what it is because people would postulate as to why I'm quitting, and sometimes I hate THAT more than getting no rest. Suffice it to say that I'm going cold turkey for a while. It's not chocolate, not coffee and it's not anything I'm embarrassed to talk about, I just don't WANT to talk about it. I'm off to work to clean my classroom. Oi vey. Happy Labor Day.

September 1, 2007 - Saturday Roberta Flack II Current mood: silly Category: Music Too funny. I was on my way out to work yesterday - Hwy 22 - and I passed a billboard for Chinook Winds Casino. Guess who is playing there on September 9th? Yep, Roberta Flack... Coincidence? I think not! Hmmm. Wonder how much the tickets are? Wonder if it would be a good show? Wonder if I could wrangle anyone to go see it with me?

August 25, 2007 - Saturday Roberta Flack Current mood: contemplative Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes The first time ever I saw your face I thought the sun rose in your eyes and the moon and the stars were the gifts you gave to the dark and the endless skies, my love. To the dark and the end of the skies. And the first time ever I kissed your mouth I felt the earth move in my hand like the trembling heart of a captive bird that was there at my command, my love. That was there at my command, my love. The first time ever I lay with you I felt your heart so close to mine and I knew our joy would fill the earth and last 'til the end of time, my love. And it would last 'til the end of time, my love. The first time ever I saw your fac...